Who am I?

Tuesday, June 19, 2012
In visiting with my wise mother-in-law tonight, she said something about jobs, “It’s not who you are, it’s just what you do.” That struck me and I see so much wisdom in it when I use it to measure up an outside the home job. What your employment is doesn’t define who you are. You are a child of God. Heir to His kingdom. More precious than rubies. Forgiven. Righteous. Perfect. Being made holy. However, my wrestle with this is, who does that make me? My job is in the home: being a mom, home keeper, wife. I think I am these things in additions to His daughter. Is there error in this? Or am I a mom and a wife but in the eyes of God not a home keeper? I don’t know how to be the best mom and wife I can without keeping my home in an organized, tidy manner. I can’t seem to overlook sticky floors, splatter all over the cupboards, running out of ingredients and supplies and just be “there” as a mom and wife. I don’t feel like I can have one without the other. Is there error in this? I know in all things I should strive for balance and meanwhile maintain perspective: it’s more important for me to give time, service, physical affection, gifts, words of affirmation to my kids than having clean bathrooms. Or is having the clean bathrooms and kitchen and floor and clothes part of the service to my husband and children? “I am not a home-keeper, it’s just what I do,” but “I am a home-keeper, mom and wife.” What does scripture say about this?
1.       Alicia revealing her heart
2.       Golden heads helping me shop
3.       Patience to make it through the shopping
4.       Being able to treat them to lunch
5.       3 more Scoops tokens
6.       Giffeys arriving safely
7.       Kids not missing a beat
8.       Big kids talking until 10
9.       Heart to heart with Gail past midnight
10.   The compassionate one offering to take out the trash
11.   The engineer’s flight arriving earlier than previously thought
12.   Micah being able to spend the night at home..not Mayo
13.   Opportunity for Micah to see his doctor for a check-up
14.   The miracle You’re going to do in Micah’s life
15.   Big kids up and excited to be together at 6am!
16.   Kids Camp pictures
17.   Ability to mop the kitchen floor & wash away “sticky”
18.   Seven kids climbing onto the hammock with me in the middle
19.   Popcorn all over the ground…feeding the birds
20.   Bottle caps on the table
21.   Ice cream in a bag with the older kids
22.   Naps for the middle kids
23.   Treasure in heaven
24.   Opportunity to go to Kracht Garbage Day
25.   Being “emotional support” for grandma and mom
26.   Ability to share insight about marital roles with mom
27.   Derrick’s eagerness to serve at Garbage Day
28.   Delburt’s verbal gratitude expressed to Derrick
29.   Watching fathers and sons work together
30.   Watching brothers and cousins work together
31.   Safety getting home although sleepy
32.    Really sleeping until 8am
33.   Folgers
34.   Shawna serving grandpa compassionately...making scrapbooks
35.   A Sabbath without golden heads
36.   Family planning on the calculating one’s birthday party
37.   A week without being mom
38.   The golden heads eagerly staying at grandma’s for a week
39.   Eagerness of grandpa & grandma to have them a week
40.   Compassionate one making special K bars for grandpa
41.   Wanting grandpa to have the leftovers
42.   Visiting with uncle Carl
43.   Boisterous one’s kisses for grandpa great
44.   Cousins swimming for hours in the stainless steel calf feeder
45.   Find the boisterous one’s capris and undies
46.   Boisterous one so excited for grandma Barb’s play dough
47.   Living close enough to make a day trip “home”
48.   Laughing with the engineer about pulling the wrong chain for the ceiling fan
49.   Ripstick
50.   Ripping out cooper tubing with the skid loader
51.   Luke’s leadership
52.   Praying Philippians 2:1-4 for Kestrel
53.   Good movies
54.   Soaker hoses
55.   Blueletterbible.com
56.   Memories of the farm
57.   Picture of compassionate one and dad with the baby pigs
58.   Dew drops
59.   “Life is like a mountain railway” on itunes
60.   Over half the deck stained
61.   Drier weather to stain
62.   Cool morning breeze
63.   Fish in the pond
64.   Soaker hose
65.   Grandpa getting enough money to pay for the funeral
66.   Lunch & friendship with Alicia
67.   Running beside corn that I just barely taller than
68.   Having a birthday cake to make
69.   Slip & Slide
70.   Cousins coming to the party
71.   Having the deck stained
72.   Tiki Torches
73.   Repentance from selfishness
74.   Campfire with just the two of us
75.   Mulch in the flower bed
76.   Home Depot having plastic sheeting
77.   Bakery buns
78.   Java Chip Frappuccino @ Starbucks
79.   Realizing my homemade ones are just as good
80.   Stack of brush…gone
81.   Wearing a dress just because
82.   Shopping
83.   Finding the engineer half way between Eagan & Woodbury
84.   Going to “work” with the engineer
85.   Sitting in the little café for 30 minutes with the engineer
86.   Not getting our chicken so I could have Starbucks for lunch
87.   Not having to pay for our drinks & salad
88.   Opportunity to navigate new territory
89.   Tiny peppers
90.   Peas to pick
91.   Blossoms on the green beans
92.   Beets sprouting
93.   Sevin to stop Japanese beetles
94.   Learning to garden as a child
95.   Working from home
96.   Running up the stairs after dinner
97.   Peanut butter toast & apples for dinner
98.   Making jerky for Micah
99.   Note from Jessica

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